HAPPY NEW YEAR
Yes yes, I know, it’s been forever since I posted and I want to talk about that.
So, early last year I lost two very important family members. Both young. Both very talented. One was my baby cousin, who passed away in early in the year of 2016. It was hard on us all and I wanted to cry all the time. I had also lost my job around that time, so I was spending a lot of time at home, trying to figure out my next moves. Then, in March, I get a call that my big brother had passed. That fucking crushed me and I swear I couldn’t breathe for a solid minute. So in early 2016, I had experienced lost twice and was trying to drown out a lot of the pain in any way possible.
Which brings me to why I had made this blog. I had promised myself I was going to start doing what I love to do, because I could die at any moment. I didn’t take this lightly and really thought hard about what I would want to do. What would I, as one person, do with what time I have left on this earth? Well, I love sex. I love everything that has to do with sex and human interaction in general. I love teaching and learning everything that there is to know. So…I made Fairy Cake’s Land. A magical place where I could do all of those things and be super happy.
And it pretty good for a while. I was making post, getting views, being awesome. But then…I lost that spark. I lost that will to write and smile at my own stupid jokes. I stopped posting and went into a deep depression. I just couldn’t keep up the face anymore of pretending to be ok. It was impossible for me too. I had gotten a new job, I lived in a pretty decent area and my husband was doing all he could to take care of me. And yet I just felt nothing. This is when I knew I had to take a step back and really think about what I was doing with myself and this blog. Was I really happy writing about sex all day and being a perv? Or was this just another way to cope with the loss of life and facing death. It was hard to figure out but I took the time I really needed to figure it out. It isn’t like the blog was going to go anywhere unless I decided to delate it.
Come to find out, I was feeling stuck as a one trick pony. Yes this is mainly a sex toy review blog, but who is to say it couldn’t be more? So i made up my mind that I was going to run this blog like a human and not a one trick pony. Kinda got the first post (this post) up super late soooo HAPPY NEW YEAR :0)
But really. I miss doing this and I’m back to stay. So hi my little freaky fairies and cupcakes! Let’s get back to the horny magic!